Friday PM

Went to see Jorge via DATS this afternoon. Allie was driving this afternoon there so it was nice to see him again. Waited with Lori who got a brand new laptop from DELL in pink spiffy I say. She was installing OFFICE 2007 when I got there. SHe showed it to me and I was impressed it had Windows Vista on it as well. Kelly faxed my subsidy application to the proper authority but Lori Brown claimed she never got it which is wierd will fix next Friday. I am going through literally dental hell and thought of cancellihng to day because of it. My mouth is really sore really sore. Saw Jorge and he understood that i was in alot of pain and depressed and not doing very well at all. He said to that fact that he understood. I wis hhe could take all the pain away. As I write this I am getting upset and will probably need a zyprexa after I am done. I just wish the pain would go away damn it once and for all the physical and emotional it is a lot for one to handle I think and i am not doing so great handling it I feel like on my own sometimes. Jorge said he understood and that was great to hear. Got home and called THeresa she came down got my mail and had a coke with me while I rinsed my mouth out several times after a cigarette because the pain was so bad I took a toradol too and that seems to be helping a lot. Also took two tylenol #4 earlier. Mum please send me some Reiki I cannot stnad this pain anymore dental pain has got to be the worst. Jorge said to do something fun other than reading this weekend but wh at the heck can you do when the money situation is so tight. The ambition to do anything is not there when you are dealing with pain either which really sucks. I hope I stay up later tonight and sleep in tomorrow I will read the APA Newspapers (2) and catch up on those read a book Judy gave me and the new Rolling Stone with AC/DC on the cover. Already read the Sun this morning. So I am going to try and get some emotional relief right now.

Tajalia