Saturday Afternoon

I wrote whole bunch of stuff then had to reboot my computer and lost the entire post. I guess I should have hit save to save what I had written. Well Theresa is back in hospital 30 certification and has Dr Chantelle Maureau, who is a fantastic Dr and I know her. She hanged out with Dr Sanderman and Dr Frolicke a lot when she was first hired. I have yet to see THeresa up on 4F3 due to my own issues.

I have quit smoking on Champix but finding it hard to keep it up when I am having a Fibromyalgia Flare and having a lot of widespread pain all over. I have been on the champix for three weeks and just quit last Tuiesday, I was cutting down before that smoking les and less. THe Champix is working very well. I am not dealing with the physical pain of FM that well. I want to go off Effexor and the largactil during the day and go on Cymbalta. However it is not covered yet by Blue Cross it is going under review in March sources have told me and might be covered in April. I cannot afford it as I am already paying for the Champix which is not covered and it costs a lot of money on my budget.

Right now I am in pain and thinking of cancelling Mar k and I Montanas date for now as I am not functioning very well with pain. My concentration level is screwed as well as everything else. Jorge is going to he lp me get out of this pickle I just have to be patient. I am out of patience whe n I hurt from head to toe. I wanted to go off the Effexor and the largactil right away called him for his blessing and he told me a flat out NO for now which is bothering me but I will wait, I guess I have no choice.

With Theresa in the hospital yet again I am very lonely and trying to deal with that as well. I eat alone and it is not fun except when I get out with my dear friend Mark. I am trying not to complain about the pain too much to him for fear of scaring him away. Today we are supposed to go to Petsmart and Montana's to eat,my treat but right now I feel horrible, My muscles are sore all over. Well hopefullly I will go out as planned and forget the pain for awhile. I also have been reading like mad and Bono has been the greatest cat anyone would want in my state.

Tajalia